As cliched as it sounds,
I often think of myself as the main character in the movie of my life. That is, I’m the protagonist, and everyone I come into contact with are simply secondary. Some play larger roles than others (my family, for example, pull more emotional clout from my imaginary audience than mere acquaintances), but at the end of the day, it’s the Flavia Movie and it’s all about me.
With this in mind, I sometimes find myself looking at myself and whatever situation I find myself in as part of this imaginary audience. I find it hard day-to-day to see how I might be doing things wrong, or how others might be doing wrong by me, and I find that looking at things through this lens (har har) helps me add a wee bit of perspective to things.
With the New Year upon me and with such exciting things laying in wait for me this year, I think my resolution is to make 2012 about making me happy. There are people in my life who, in this movie, I would absolutely abhor and would scold Movie!Flavia for even keeping in her company. I would sit on the couch and tut-tut to myself that surely she should know better and can’t she see that she’s wasting her time.
This has been a week of many resolutions and I can only hope that this one sticks. My leading lady is ready for a stellar Second Act.
